This is the year. This is when it will all change. Not many people with a chronic illness at the level of mine get a reset on their health. A new beginning. From every day filled with this sickness to so much health I will have no idea what to do with myself. It is an exciting prospect and I can't wait to share it with those I love, those who have been around and involved in all the intimate details of this disease, especially Renee and the kids and my family who have been there since diagnosis day 30 years ago and my first time getting sick midway through my 8th grade year, close to 22 years ago. Back when being 36 with CF was not really a thing. And 36 with CF and a family? Hah. It is amazing what the love of the most beautiful woman and 2 incredible children can do. When someone who has a choice chooses you, illness and all. I love you, Renee. I am alive today because of you.
It has been a long slow goodbye to these lungs, yet looking back through all the suffering I would not change a thing. I would not be who I am had I not lived with these immense struggles...and victories. This is the only life I have known and it has been grand. It has been character building to say the least and I like who I am, who I have become, because of what I have been through.
So ready to start this new chapter. Hell, might as well just consider it starting a whole new book. Ready to slam the cover closed on the old one. I often say "I can't remember the last time I could run without a care in the world." I am ready to start saying "When was the last time I COULDN'T run?" That's it. That's the first line right there...
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